毎月のおわかれ

I've gotten very sad news that my senior passed away two months ago.

I still can't believe this reality. When I got the news, my heart was a little panicked and I cried unknowingly. Why did this year rob me of my precious friends? I'd like to ask the God the reason. The most depressing year ever... I can't express my complex feelings for just a few words.

I met him three and half years ago at the kitchen in Tokyo, where I volunteered every week.

He was over seventy years ago. At that time, I lived by myself to go to the university so it was difficult to see my real grandpa often. Therefore, I felt as if he were my granpa in Tokyo.

Here are some stories with him.

When I was hunting the job, I was depressed everyday and couldn't join volunteering because I lost almost all my energy. For the first time in two or three months, I joined it again and as soon as he saw my face, he smiled and said '' I missed you''.  This phrase encouraged me because at that time I always felt like the society didn't need me any more. After that, I said '' I got a job finally'', and he said '' Congrats!!! '' and he reported it other volunteers. To tell the truth, my result of job hunting wasn't the satisfying one. However, that he congratulated on me a lot brought me the confidence.

Soon before I graduated from the university, I joined the volunteer. Probably it was the last time to talk to him. We talked about my graduation ceremony. I said to him '' I won't rent Hakama attire... It's too late to book.'' and he said '' My relative has hakama, so I'll ask her to lend you if you want...'' I didn't ask him about it eventually but this story proves that he cares for me everytime.

I learned lots of things from him. He had joined volunteering for ten years. He knew how to organize volunteering very well. He was so humble person that he didn't want to receive something from volunteering. He spent his time for someone. He liked teaching. He was so young for his age. He cared for his family and his ex-students. He used to teach in the USA. He tries to express his feeling to foreigners even though he couldn't speak English. He seemed to be proud of himself. he was active.